و الفجر

Thursday, July 23, 2009


و الفجر



يحسب القدر أنه انتصر
خلفته وراء ظهري طويلاً
حبسته في أصابعي ترمي النرد
و تركته في قفص الشك وحيداً
حتى نزع القيد
و ثار
بدد الشكوك حابسأً إياي
أمام يقين الاحتمالات رقماً فريداً
استوحدني الليل،
قمراً دون النجوم،
بسمةُ أمام وجه العُبوس،
آهٍ
ليلي الطروب،
صار أبكماً
يضحك القدر فيه طويلاً
فتهرب الجواري الحسان
خوفاً
و تجف الخمرة فوق شفاه الكؤوس
فتجذب شفاهي..
و تنضب آبار الجنون في دمائي..
يحسب أني سأصبح غداً
خاسراً
وحيداً
و تضيء الشمس شعاعاً ذهبيا
على ضريح الشهيد
تمتص الدماء
فيصير الفجرُ
أحمراً
دموياً.
يفزعُ فيه السكوت
من سكونه،
فتضج ملائكة السماء
عصياناً
و ذهولاً،
ترفع رؤسها نحوي،
صرت بعد الدماء نبيا!
ينبض الكون وراء
وقع قلبي،
أمر الليل أن يمسيَ
فجراً
فأنسى
ذات يومٍ
أني كنت فيه وحيداً..

ليفينج ستون، سكوتلندا
23-7-2009

The Oven

Saturday, July 11, 2009

I believe old Egyptian used a unique method in anti aging process, to keep their kings young. In same time, they used anti detritus secret method to save their corpses.
The best way to keep a raw meat is putting it in a freezer. The cold temperature plays an important rule to preserve raw materials. By saying raw materials, I include human being bodies. The best method to preserve them is inside the freezer, even for a corpse.
It’s unusual to meet patients here, in Scotland, below 50’s. Most of them are old, and partially still in shape. They keep enjoying their health in their last days. They eat red meats, consume alcohol, smoke, and have a lot of bad habits. Yet, the catabolism/destruction down process in their bodies is very slow. Because, I think, cold temperature suppresses that down. On the other side of the world, Saudi Arabia, It was rare to find patients above 60’s or 70’s. They usually suffer the worse pain ever to reach that age. And when it comes to death, they die miserably in pain and sickness. I don’t think the diet or life style participate in this as much as the oven, they live into, does. Hot, I mean extremely hot, weather we live with speeds up the process of aging in our bodies.
I would like to suggest an equation regarding the weather and age. Let’s assume the weather has a factor. For example, cold weather factor is (-0.25), while hot weather factor is (0.5). To calculate effect of weather over individual age we do the following:
Age + (the age × the weather factor) = Real age
Therefore, in Saudi Arabia, the equation goes this way for an individual aged 40;
40 + (40*0.5) = 60 years old.
While in Scotland, for 60 years old individual;
60 + (60*-0.25) = 45 years old.
So, a guy aged 40 years in Saudi Arabia is really older than 60 years old guy in a cold country. The age scale/factor/ratio may be adjusted later on to be more specific. So, the hot weather kills us slowly, silently, and roughly.

i need to review this article again.

Thoughtless/Toughtful

Thursday, July 09, 2009
I don't know what is going in my mind.
I feel like it just stopped working. I wanna write, think, feel, and be insighted. Yet, I'm lost deep within. I don't know where to direct myself and how.
I wanted to write about slaveship, agricultre, poverty, Sctoland (where I'm), age relatievnce, elder people in communities, abuse, and some poems and feelings that comes out naturally from my heart.

My heart, my lost heart, be found soon..