Odds

I’m trapped between the tides of hope and despair. I plan to pick a water drop, a particular one which guarantees the eternal happiness and wellbeing. I thought initially that a human being journey starts from a drop of water, or semen, and extends to rule the seas and oceans. Apparently the odds of my existence are similar to find out that exact droplet. I was lost before I’ve arrived, and it’s foolish to expect that I’m going to be found inside this terminal.

Honestly, the idea which I try to deliver through this whole article is how difficult the phase I pass through. I imagine myself like, a pin, a guy surrounded by countless pathways. I can’t determine my destination. Nevertheless, I have a little clue about how it looks like. I imagine, again, that I’m a doctor in the middle of the space. I don’t have any idea where, how, or when. All I have to do is studying, working, and practicing. Simply, I can’t handle this number of variables. I can’t control my future. Alas, who can control the future?

Unfortunately, I’m not only bound to make a decision regarding my career. So, a guy, or a pin implanted in the middle of the fourth dimension, where I have the option to progress in any direction. Yet, I can’t go back through the time, because I’m the time. How can I redo myself? How can I be uncreated, or recreated in other shapes or forms? If reincarnation is true, I wish to be a rock in my next life. Death itself is very fortune option, since we need be alive in first place before dying. Time itself needs space to exist. How correct is the contrary? My odd of existence is almost one to one and 2685000 zero next to it, simply zero. And my options how to spend this life is only one and 268500 zero next to it.

I think, I took the wrong turn in the previous paragraph. Still, I insist moving in the same direction. Humans, us the current species, weren’t here in 200 thousand years ago. The fact that we can burn the oxygen, to make energy inside our cells, wasn’t viable idea until two billions years ago. This ability is very unique considering how toxic oxygen is. Anyway, Oxygen wasn’t abounded in our atmosphere initially. Still, the first evidence of life stands almost four billions years ago. Just like what I mentioned earlier, many extraterrestrial beings may not rely on such gas to live and flourish. Humans are very fragile, very transient phase, and soon I believe they would extinct.

I’m sick of masks that people are wearing. It’s shocking when I observe the poor placing the mask of wealth, also, for the rich to disguise as a Tyrant. The strength is not inspired from the finical status, or the mask which covers an individual face. How fragile is that piece of fakeness and phoniness. To tell the truth, talking about options and possibilities raises the question of free will. Indeed the first question to be asked in the middle of all those coincidences and big deal of luck, did we arrive to earth by our own wish? An individual can’t choose to be born, but how free is one individual to terminate own life?  In the end, what’s the meaning of our lives? Given that the atoms which build our cells will contribute one way or another to the major spirit of universe and the minor life along this planet.

How attached are we to the building unit inside our bodies? The answer may define the soul, the life, and the free will. There’s a wrong belief about inability to utilize more than ten percent of our brain capabilities. The amusing about this misconception is to what extend we can control the atoms inside our cells. How can we control cells? This way, we may reverse much pathology. How free are we? I have no clue. Are we just a video game? Gladly, I finish my article again with more question marks!

the picture: Maybe the moon is missing by Crina Prdia.

Standby!

The galaxy is huge. Inside the galaxy there’re many black holes that could open to another white holes. The white holes lead to other galaxies and universes. How insignificant is an atom inside an H2O (water) in a drop of sea water? Who knows? That atom could be another galaxy which contains many black holes and white holes as well. How big is the smallest particle, and how small is the largest universe?

I have to admit it that I’m lost. I can’t co up to think in details and advance with my little brain. Brain the funny machine. One guy told me that Einstein is intelligent because he stayed in his mother womb longer than usual. That allowed his brain cell to grow and multiply more than term birth baby. However, this’s rubbish because staying too long inside the womb makes blood flow poorer and compromise many vital functions. I don’t mean that my brain is little so it’s better. 

My brain is a little because it can’t catch the secret beneath time. Our perception to time is very mysterious to me. As it’s 2 changing elements; the time effect, and our perception. One of them must be static, so we can feel the motion of the other. I can remember briefly the A & B rule in time. Almost the B part states that to feel the time we need to compare it or refer it to something fixed. I hope I understood it correctly. So our time perception is related one way or another to the stationary of time motion or time effect. Still, time is effecting us either we could feel or couldn’t feel that effect. But is that 100% correct? Again as I could remember when we travel faster the brain waves move slower. Maybe travelling in very fast speed like ½ of the light speed may neglect the effect of time, while our perception to it changes. 

I’m lost, I hope you’re not. Some of you remember the entry about evolution theory. That thing has 2 many aspects. First and briefly, the Islamic and precisely the Shia understand and flexibility to knowledge. I think some Muslims reject the evolution theory because of the influence of the Christianity church. As well as their tendency to ignore and reject any development in science, they really demonstrate the conflict between knowledge and religion. I could observe some extent of this tendency in Shia world recently. Unfortunately, Shia was very flexible, Maskwaih himself was Shetie, and many scientists were Shia with unique theories. Any way this will take another whole article. 

The whole previous paragraph leads me to a question; how true is the evolution theory? Maskwaih says that Quran mentioned the theory in one phrase. Regardless of that, could it be true? Again, I’m lost. I searched in the chromosomes numbers which prove whole rubbish and none sense. Anyway, I think this topic is just like a genie in the bottle. It just needs to be rubbed and unleashed. Results could be really surprising. 

In the end, I have to apology for myself, first, and my dear readers as I didn’t write for too long. Yet, I hope to come back soon with some answers, so I can find myself between the small universe and the huge atom.

Best regards,

Maskwaih
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