I have nothing else to add

Appearances could be deceiving. Yesterday, 11-3-2011, I might be fooled by many exterior looks of people and superficial understanding of events. Beside my foolishness, it could be the longest day in my life. Despite all days are 24 hours long, which we spend a big deal of it sleeping, yesterday exceeded the 24 hours time.  I could prove that time is not an experience of quantitative value, 24 hours per say, as it’s the quality of what you pass through. Time is relative to the energy amount you spend on a particular moment. Back to E=MC2, which may explain what I mean, in the end there is speed, which consists of time and space. And for saving your time, I am not gonna tell you what events had happened, but the lessons I learned from them.

I may go a bit further and suggest that space is not as necessary as energy to time existence. I am not as brilliant as Einstein was, to formulate this in physical equation. However, if I spend more time thinking, and investing more energy in this topic, a conclusion may pop up in my mind. To tell the truth that what Einstein did, Energy is the higher form of mass (only masses which exceed the speed of the light square can be energy), and it always requires space and time to be existed. Anyway, a lot of energy was transformed in heat waves recently. Racism is the justification of maltreating others only because they are different. And it takes a lot of hate energy to be racist.

I am not over yet, bear with me for a minute please. I am sharing some experience with you. Saudi thieves are very chaotic. Regardless the theft, they aim to destroy and mess everything their hands or eyes reach. Specially, when they found nothing valuable to steal, they destruct everything else. You know, they act like very bold explorers. If the thief is poor, then it has something to do with finding out how middle, or higher classes do and life style. In the end, they reach the idea they can’t live this style, narcissism, so nobody else has the right to live it. Anyway, in my case, the chauffeur was injured and beaten, and nothing at all was stolen, except his wallets and car keys. For my surprise the car was standing still in its parking. That gives me a clue to: 1. those are not Saudis. 2. Most likely, it has something to do with personal revenge, like gambling, between him and people from same nationality.

To analyze or understand the stealer mentality we need to emphasis there is multifactor contributes to build criminal character. What criminal psychology tried, in last 60 or 70 years to establish, is predicting the occurrence of a criminal character in a normal individual. They suggested an association between anti-social personality disorder and criminal behavior. One criteria of this disorder, listed by WHO, is the incapability to experience the guilt feeling. Therefore, they are indifferent to punishment, and can’t profit from it. Other measure is gross and persistence attitude of ignoring social norms and obligations. A cause for all this mess couldn’t be found, especially with the lack of studies. To understand criminal mind more, we may devote a whole entry in next weeks regarding this topic.

Saudi thieves are nothing more than ordinary Saudi individuals. They live along with us, breath same air, inherit similar genes, learn exact manners, and acquire same traditions. I don’t wanna say that each one of us is a robber, lair, nor suffering of inferior look to oneself. But I am sure the thief discrimination toward rich people, and vice versa, is something in common between all of Saudis. Discrimination per say is not something related to Freud Psychoanalysis theory, or children abuse, or the stupid hot climate. It’s the fear and intolerance of the other. I was shocked when 13 or 14 years old boy talked to my intellectual friend, saying that Shia is the source of all evils in Saudi. I bet this guy wouldn’t hesitate to kill Shias or others if he became armed. This is not antisocial behavior, or psychopathy. It’s an attitude reinforced by the whole atmosphere around him which instructs him to be aware and cautious. No wonder when individuals are racist, as the government, in the first place, is the same.

To sum it all; first of all, the fact that I don’t hold Saudi ID has nothing to do with my mother’s nationality. The other rumor states that 2 or 4 Saudi men attacked the family’s chauffeur. I have to investigate that further, but I think it’s not true. Also, the fact that I changed my style and hair dressing doesn’t mean I am getting engaged soon, nor I’m influenced by Lady Gaga. The presence of an intellectual friend in my life is necessary to understand and analyzed the gossips around me. The last rumor, I’m raciest because my skin tone is fair, or coming from a higher class electa, is unfortunately true... I told you earlier, appearances are deceiving, and who could tell that I am racist? I have nothing else to add.

E=MC2

There lies a story inside each one of us. A quest of life and everyone is worth the tale he/she tells. In the end, we all are equal, no one doesn’t hold a mystery inside. I’m looking to my world as I am inside a cinema theater. I am analyzing the events I pass through, as a dream materials. Always, I keep looking from above, to see how the chain of actions starts the domino sequence. In the end of the day, when I go to my bed, the screen inside my eyes turn pitch black. A dreamer, who never dreams.

I don’t recall when my life has started to be full of thrill, drama, romance, betrayal, and action. I can’t remember when I was born, 24 years ago, but I’ve been inserted out of nowhere inside this dilemma. The past 2 weekends were indescribable. Priceless moments passed, when I turned to Gandhi, Stalin, Machiavelli, Mother Teresa, Don Juan, Chi Guevara, or a god. The dream machine handles dressing me, adjusts the settings, and says Action! Nevertheless, no matter how hard I tried to record a scene again, I was standing hopeless. Since, we need all actors, and each atom inside them, to play the rule again. Hardly, they all would agree.

Feel free to think of me as a man has nothing to say, as I have a lot to do. Such a poor guy like me could control the destiny of thousands. Those untouchable thousands can influence millions. The millions initiate the world movement around us. And the core atom is nothing else but me. You may not understand how I sacrifice my breaths and lives, endless number of lives, to save one individual’s life. Your limited realization of reality is due to one thing, you don’t wear the skull eyeglasses I do wear. It was given to me by an elf.

We all appreciate the journey a rain drop takes every time to land on earth. Imagine this earth was created from the beginning with a limited number of water atoms. Imagine again for millions of years, how many time this one water atom ascended, then descended. Every time of the billions times it touched the earth, it starts a new form of life. Regardless the thought that a lot of teenagers and above (like 18 and above) they waste daily a big deal of sperms in sewer water, those poor sperms would find their way to life eventually. I don’t suggest the occurrence of mutations between humans and fishes, frogs, turtles, or water weeds. Anyway, for those missing or lost water atoms, there is the rain collector.

So, there is constant quantity of every substance above or beneath the earth, the law of conservation of mass. That was correct until Einstein suggested a mass may transform into energy if it exceeds the light speed, this is the naïve way to say it. E = mc2 is the physical way to explain Einstein’s theory. The speed of light is around 300,000 km/h, imagine a car moves that speed, then square it. All what he did is summing up the 2 laws of energy and mass conversation.  

Still, I don’t think H2O atom have ever reached that speed. I have 2 questions: first, if that substance slowed down after becoming energy, would it return back to its initial status? Second question is what the speed of atom particles? Third, some peoples’ great actions are as speed as the light is. Therefore, those people are constant as energy does, they just change in form. If we assume that I’m, Ahmed, good man, then I need to tell you that many great people spent a lot of energy raising me, teaching me, and inspiring me.

Tomorrow, 22-3-2011, I’m going to wake up not in a form of a rain drop, but more like mercury one, uncatchable. Still, Just by looking to myself, I reached how a rain drop participates creating something new when it touches the earth over and over. We can’t understand each H2O or other atoms build the realm of seen world. 

P.S: the speed of light exactly is: 299,792,458 m/sec

P.P.S: any excuse for my absence recently is lame.. just sorry..

P.P.P.S: rain collector, and dream machine are real. Don't mock me please.

Cinema Paradiso

This took me outside the place, the time, and the body I linger into..